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P.I.T.A August 14, 2008

Filed under: Complaining bin — ascil @ 9:46 am

Well, I tried to be  nice, I tried to be kind and I tried to be rational.

This post is just going to be one of those blogs which complains about how sad I am ..yada..yada..yada.

Yeap! You’re correct, I’m caught up in a situation whereby I could’nt breathe even if you put a tank of oxygen in front of me.

Seriously, what the hell am I doing in an island I love yet I hate so much. It’s definitely not the situations but it definitely is …due to ppl.

I’m out of speech and I might flip this lap top anytime now due to the annoyance around me. Dear god, pls let those hungry ghost flip them like they flip pizza. Thank you.

 

August Thoughts August 7, 2008

Filed under: Special days — ascil @ 2:33 pm

Yellow folks!

My apologies for not posting anything. I’ve got a lot of back log photos to post up actually, however, I just don’t have the time to do so.

It’s funny how time flies. For the past few days I’ve been thinking a lot. As humans, we’re never content what we have. We’re never fulfilled of what’s given to us. There are so many things which I’d love to contribute and achieve as a human being.

I’d love to open a charity home someday, help nature and at least be able to treat the people I love/care with the things they’d like. I took some time flipping through books, journals and photos just to get some flashbacks down memory lane.

It’s funny how we all evolved through time. Our physical looks? Our age? Our point of views? Funny how we grew to hate things we love, and love things we hated. Awkward how the new faces we meet in our lives could change our behavior.  We complain how cruel the world treats us and yet ignored how blessed we are.

As if you all know, today is Chinese Valentines Day. I know it’s a lil late to post this up but I’d just want to tell you ( Friends and Family).

I LOVE YOU. *cheers! >OI! Where’s my flowers???

 

Old aged photos…I think? July 4, 2008

Filed under: Uncategorized — ascil @ 9:44 am

It has been awhile since I’ve uploaded any photos. Better do it than said. So here’s a bunch of photos which I’d like to share. Some are edited by friends, some are taken by friends, some are from me. I hope it’ll lighten up some info about my life to you! May you have them you say? No, you can’t have them :P

MeAlright.. i’m getting very sleepy. Have to stop here. Will upload more. Tahan la…ish. Love you all!
 

July Items June 25, 2008

Filed under: Working Life — ascil @ 7:52 am

Hello fellow fwens.

I have loads of pictures waiting to be posted up but… maybe later?

This month has been pretty blur. A lot of things going through my head. Anyway, I’ve figured out a list of items to do this month.

Don’t cha even try to laugh.

1. Get new hair do.

2. Lose some weight ( lost 3 kg but gained back…)

3. Finish up my legacy writing.  Yes, I do write. No, you can’t read.

4. Get sufficient rest. (which will definitely NOT- stop telling me that I don’t have enough rest. Sleeping is a waste of time and so what if you slept late?)

5. Get shoes. I’m gonna rip off some shoes again (maybe?)

6. Bathe my dog.

7. Make homemade Muesli bars? (thinking)

8. Blog and buff.

9. Sports… and I mean lotsa lotsa sports.

10. Movies, movies and movies.

11. I want an MP3 modulator. Anyone would be kind enough to get me one? I’m charity and I would marry him/her.

12. Continue on to sharpen my sarcasm.

13. Dance around my cubicle?

14. Get a digi cam?

15. Visit Ms.Cheah n family? (Yea right, as if I even have time for myself)

16. Get new HDD? Yap, I’ve got too much junk n porn. (could you believe that? if you did, you’re not my friend…F off)

17. Eliminate Kiasus, Bitches and haters. Wait, i’m one of them??puh leez.

18. Get a pet. Prawn perhaps?

19. Learn how to photoshop? Photoshoot?

20. If you’ve managed to read up till here, thank you for your kind endurance of letting me blabber my words. However, Angelyn ar Angelyn, you don’t have so much resources to do what you planned to do. So…continue your work.

 

Childhood, Time and Happy Father’s Day. June 13, 2008

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Remember those days which you’d just wish you were grown ups? Not having to listen and being nagged by your parents? Yes, childhood.

You dislike going to school, dislike writing and copying till your hands swell. Spicing up excuses to NOT let your teacher hit you. First day of the school holiday was like music and last day of it was like hell. Heavy school bags, shaky tables and wooden chairs. Prefect acting like bosses, writing down your names, catching you for running around the school field. Aw…nostalgic isn’t it?

After a few years of struggling and complaining how much you wish you’d grow up with rules of your own, you’ve finally enter adulthood. You experience all sorts of emotions, laughter and relationships. Soon, you’re deemed to enter the working world, dodging bullets like Keanu Reeve’s Matrix box office. Seeing how ugly and how beautiful a person could be.

Suddenly you bump onto the Conscience Pole, knocking your head and taking you into memories which you wish you would live through it again. Without denying it, I’m truly *bumped* that time flies just like that.

For many of you , with family and loving parents. I am happy for you and truly believes that god has blessed you with the most divine gift.  As a child, I used to grow up in a family of pride and happiness. I could have whatever I wanted and I was my family’s Pearl. But due to some health issues, dad’s no longer here. Growing up was never easy seeing him suffer.

Yes, I admit that I used to be a super-duper spoiled brat… but as situation changes, I learned how people behave and I learned how to take care of people’s feelings. How complicated things could be and how simple life could be if people would just-let-go. I grew up hating and confused with questions like “Why is my dad sick?”, “Why can’t mom smile like she used to?” , “Why is dad so sick that he couldn’t even remember her favorite daughter?”. Then… I remembered bro telling me that life would never be the same. Yes.. indeed.

I didn’t communicate with my dad during my teens and I disliked the fact what i had to go through. As time goes by, I was away studying. Then there was this one day I called my mom and my dad requested to talk to me. You know what he said? ” Don’t give up, never give up and try until you get it” Though his words were very blur because of his condition, I felt…loved and comforted for the past years.

However, good things never lasts and 4 hours later in the wee morning. My dad passed away. I crumbled in my own room, having flashed back and wet my eyes all the way for hours till I reached my house. I knelt as I crawl in my house as a customary ritual to beg forgiveness for not being there on time to see him go. I reached his body and there he was, cold, lifeless and resting.

My heart was broken and yet, there weren’t sufficient words which I could wake him up. Wishing I should have told him how much I loved him, and how much I wish I could bring him back to countries and places he have taken me as a child. Wishing I could cure him and just tell him how much I missed him calling my name cause he couldn’t do it after he fell sick.

That was then, I realize daddy’s gone. After the funeral, mom told me things like how much dad wanted to planned for my 21st birthday though he was sick and how proud he was to see me pursuing what I wanted by myself …lastly, how sorry he was that he couldn’t provide me the things he used to provide while he was capable.

Life’s never as wonderful as written in the fairy tales. I went back to my studies falling sick, losing weight and losing my mind. I regretted and yet I couldn’t blame myself as my mom always tells me that I was too young to UNDERSTAND life. As years passed by, I would miss my dad during Father’s Day. All in all, he did his best and he still lives in me up till today.

Thus, please take sometime to tell your parents how much you love them, how much you cherish them. I’m a living proof of a life lesson learned. And to my dad, this is a tribute to you…*I think they have WebSite UP THERE KUA~~ :) -Happy Fathers day..

 

Colleagues Getting You Down? June 1, 2008

Filed under: Working Life — ascil @ 3:39 pm

Hi ! I believe that in every workplace, there are bound to be a few personalities which/whom you truly hate.

Now, I know that there are tonnes of you… “Crap! This girl is venting out her opinions too loud”. I’m sorry but I kinda got this article from a site which I think it’s really useful. Its content is like a song in my mind and I’m very much assured that all of you have met “THESE” kind of people in your working place.

Ahem… without further dragging your precious time, feast your brain, eyes and put your thinking hats on and see which category you fall into. I’ve met them all, some even worst than those mentioned! Ooops, no pun intended! Also, I’d like to thank:  http://icwales.icnetwork.co.uk/news/feature-news/fashion-lifestyle/2008/04/15

for giving us the most useful advice in the work place battle. Mind you, I don’t fall into any categories of the below mentioned. I’m as holy as a cow could get…Pfff —-> Bite you :P

*P/S : I HATE “The Office Joke(r)” & “The Sympathetic Gossip” type. YOU KNOW WHO U R :)

The I’ll Do Anything
(to get ahead)

Fierce and feisty, the I’ll Do Anything thinks she’s the boss and acts like one, even if she isn’t. She still has a hankering for the ’80s power suit and wears eye-watering stilettos teamed with that ubiquitous classic – the shoulder pad. She’s proud of the moniker “total bitch” and mirrors the ideologies of last year’s Apprentice loser and ruthless alpha female Katie Hopkins.

She’s in it to win it, doesn’t care who she steps on in the process, dreams of being the next Anna Wintour and matches the office boys drink-for-drink. She may be a secret jolly-hockey-stick, shoulder-to-cry-on type, but you’re unlikely to see much of a sensitive side unless you catch her completely unawares. Think Sun-Tzu’s Art of War and keep her as close as you can. It’s all a matter of survival.

Personality trait: Conscientiousness

Solution: Take advantage of I’ll Do Anything’s natural drive and motivation to get ahead and encourage them to lead team activities. In a managerial role they will thrive, are likely to be organised and, most importantly, will get the job done. If their dog-eat-dog attitude is affecting others in the workplace then find leadership “mentors” to teach them tact and diplomacy. Keep them interested with praise and the promise of promotion.

The Sympathetic Gossip
Also known as the Social Butterfly, the Gossip will rub your back and offer you tissues when you split up with your boyfriend but the word “confidential” just isn’t part of her vocabulary. The juicier the break up, the more she has to tell; her concerned, furrowed brow masking a silent cackle of glee as you pour every detail of your broken heart into her eager ear.

She’ll dab away the tears, but the moment your back is turned she’ll be sidling up to a colleague at the water cooler just itching to spread what she’s heard – although she’d never name names, of course. She has a radar for furtive office romance, thrives on the opener “Can you keep a secret?” and has perfected a look of radiant innocence when the whispers start flying. Approach with caution.

Personality trait: Openness

Solution: Keep your wits about you and repeat that inner mantra, “Do I really want the rest of the office finding out about this?” every time you consider confiding in her. She’s really not all bad, just indiscreet; she probably does struggle (a little) every time you ask her to keep it to herself, but the lure of being able to drop that bombshell usually wins out. Either keep your cards a little closer to your chest or play her at her own game. She won’t know what to do when she sees your halo glowing just as the rumours begin to whirl about exactly what she got up to at the office party…

The Workaholic Martyr
In every office there’s a moaner. You know the type – she’ll be the one sighing loudly in the corner and complaining they’re cold even on the most beautiful summer’s day. She’ll whine so much about how much work she has to do that it’s a wonder she actually gets any of it done. Secretly, she may even derive pleasure from complaining; it gives her a chance to remind people that she’s there and that she’s important.

She sees the world in a negative light and may get easily upset and react emotionally to things that wouldn’t bother others in the slightest. This can make her an easy target for office pranks – but beware, you’re dealing with a stressed out, ticking time bomb and her reactions are likely to be much more intense than you’d expect. Think twice before you hide her stapler…

Personality trait: Neuroticism

Solution: Self conscious and shy, this person is likely to interpret minor difficulties as insurmountable obstacles. She may be in a bad mood for long periods of time and find it difficult to deal with a stressed working environment. Frustrating as it can be to have such a negative presence in the room, try to rein in your temper when dealing with her as she might suffer from more serious emotional difficulties such as anxiety and depression. Advise her to talk to a trusted friend, psychologist or counsellor, and to confide in a superior if she needs to reduce her workload and stress levels.

The Guilty Never-Say-No
The Never-Say-No is an insecure employee who feels bad about turning colleagues, managers, members of the public and even the sandwich-delivery man down. Ever the scapegoat, she invariably ends up completely bogged down by “favours” and spends most of her lunch hour buried underneath a mountain of paper, taking messages while the rest of the office is in the pub.

She’ll do anything to keep the peace and willingly takes the blame in a bid to make those around her happy. In her mind, “getting ahead” equals “not making a fuss” and she is genuinely hurt and baffled when those around her climb the ladder of success before she even gets an apologetic toe on the bottom rung.

Personality trait: Agreeableness

Solution: People who find it difficult to say “no” may have problems with self esteem, finding themselves continually taken advantage of, borne of a lack of confidence and belief in their ability to make a firm decision. They may make rash decisions to eject themselves from a chaotic or crisis situation, or else will procrastinate for days or even months to put off the inevitable before someone else makes the decision for them. As such, they may be seen as weak and find themselves overlooked. Encourage the Never-Say-No to find a life-coach, counsellor, mentor or just a friend they can trust to focus on the positives and practise saying that all-important word, “no”.

The Office Joke(r)
She’s the female equivalent of David Brent from The Office, and will be the one in the corner droning an endless monologue of “comedy” that reminds you of your nan. Or your dad. On first meeting you might warm to her, might even appreciate the enthusiasm, but she’ll swiftly begin to grate until you’re not sure whether to feel sorry for her in a “tragic fool” kind of way or wonder how she can possibly fail to realise how much she irritates everyone she encounters.

The office joker plays to their audience. Give them even an ounce of attention and they’ll plague you with a never-ending monologue of puns of the “if there was a power struggle in a military pigeon’s ranks… would it be a coo?” ilk. Think The Fast Show’s (female) Colin Hunt. Avoid at all costs.

Personality trait: Extroversion

Solution: There’s no need to be cruel, the chances are that she has always been this way and genuinely doesn’t even realise she’s getting on everybody’s nerves. For your own sanity, try to find a way to tune her out or remind her gently how busy you are and how you just don’t have time to listen to another rambling “No this one’s really funny! Listen to this!”, anecdote. Keep a level distance – everybody else probably perfected the art of ignoring her long ago and if she thinks you’re responsive then she’ll only continue. Be kind… but not too kind.

 

Penang Test Expo Photos May 30, 2008

Filed under: Working Life — ascil @ 8:01 am

Well, brace your eyes. Yes, I look different now. Here you go… a few shots of myself in the Test Expo 2008 held at Traders hotel this month. I was one of the organizing committee for the event.

I’ve met some new friends and also a few big bosses. It was a very good learning platform for me as I didn’t know what was a Test Expo before I came into Motorola. It’s a yearly event where everyone from Motorola will sit in and listen to all the invited guests and selected speakers to talk about testing and latest technology available in the market. It was my first time participating + crew lead + first time organizing ! Horray!<COMBO>

The process of organizing the event was mentally tiring. From getting every piece of info digested into my common crew to making sure everyone’s satisfied did drain up my brain power. Nevertheless with the help of everyone, the process gave me a REAL sight of how a person’s working ethic, ability and skill of carrying out certain tasks a “crystal-clear-clean-eye-opening” evaluation. Some were very sweet, some were disappointing but overall, everyone did their part for the sake of the show. I was amazed that a simple event like this could really light the bulb of my conscience.

We had people from Agilent, National Instruments, Parasoft demonstrating some cool software and RF technologies. Great people like CM Tan, Michael, Boon, Goh Wah, Lutfi and of course…my sweet committee gangs and APCO team mates! Kudos!! Thanks for the wonderful appreciation meal Goh Wah~

All in all, it was a memorable experience. Though the process of the event was challenging, I must say… it was great. Thanks everyone!

Agilent Technology BoothFood during the event

Me n projectorPoh Leng, Me, Hooi MingSheena, Me, SLMe with Poppers!Me, JasonOpening CeremonyGoh Wah QuestioningDig in!Jason, Me, CM Tan, MichaelVendors door gift. Agilent Mem Card Redear. NI Card HolderLunch hallMe n Prabakaran from IndiaThe CommitteesAppreciation Dinner after the eventAttendeesBefore the eventRegistrationOne of the photographers, JosieNI presenterYummy~Discussion?Lutfi n MeMe n Goh Wah

 

Back after many months May 29, 2008

Filed under: Complaining bin — ascil @ 3:52 am

Hi all!

Ya, this blog is like a deserted island. I doubt that there’s even anyone who looks at it as I don’t even advertise nor shout about it. It’s the time of the year I’d do this.

Many things have happened. From working in Hell to switching positions to Motorola. Yes! I’m working there with batik uniforms daily. I’ve gained a few pounds and I look very much older now. No SK2 or even bird nests could revitalize me!

Well… let me see. I’ve met up with many different types of people. Funny ones, pathetic ones, good ones and bad ones. I took over my own apartment unit and am still progressing with the “BEING INDEPENDENT” thingy.

Now, I do dearly miss my friends in KL. The last person I’ve met up was George and we took them to the Northam Beach Hotel to enjoy their meals. We had a blast along with my new SNAKE friend from my current working place. Wow… people does change and ya.. he has lost weight and I’m glad to see him doing well.

It’s amazing how humans progress. Friends often suggests that I should go over to UK or US and lead a new life, refresh myself again. However, there are certain values which I’m just holding on in Penang. Sometimes, I wonder whether those values are worthy of keeping either.

I don’t have attachments other than my family. Chances are open and my family’s at ease to see me leave IF I wish to. I see friends getting married, people passing away, arguments, personalities turning evil and people prying into my personal life like bitches.

I’ve been ignoring Edwin’s nudges in UK’s invitation. I’ve been forgetting Vashaant’s  laughter. I’ve been hating Fong’s ignorance. I’ve been dodging bullets by Political personalities. I’ve been avoiding people, and yes, lets just let that be that. Ta Ta for now!

 

Stupid CC August 12, 2007

Filed under: Uncategorized — ascil @ 4:15 pm

Dear readers, though I know much of my readers wont be reading my blog cause there’s hardly ever any… I’d love to post up some funky photos such as “DICK SHAPED EGG PLANT” and “COWS CROSSING STREETS”, unfortunately…. the site is under construction due to my internet settings… ARGH!!! stay tuned

 

Moodless August 11, 2007

Filed under: Complaining bin — ascil @ 5:38 pm

As time goes by, it’s the time of the year to finally update this old dated Blog.

I do not have any photos to update you guys, though, I have tons of info which I’d like to rubbish out.

Working in HELL has slaved me. I’ve met the most annoying and most nice people in the world. All in all, I felt relieved to have left the place. Since working in tht place, I’ve lost all sense of life.

Just like a zombie, I did not enjoy my daily routine picking up calls and going home feeling tired. The pay is good, no doubt, but I had no life. Nobody really understood my feelings (though there were a few) as people would often wonder why would I leave a promising career as such. Many has told me that they were dying to enter the company and that I was LUCKY to enter in because I’m a fresh grad.

Nevertheless, I was grateful with all the blessings I’ve received. I’ve had great managers as well as great superiors. Yet, I’ve also met ugly bitches with cat claws and pecking mouths. I did not felt I was in the right position or place. I had to leave and I had to breathe. I was being stabbed as low profile and too cool looking. *It’s not a sin to be born with good looks AIKS!!!

I went to numerous interviews, only to find my self being rejected and questioned ” WHY did I left such a good offer?” . With smart legitimate answers, I fended myself with reasons of truth. In fact, I’d like to give an applause to those small time companies of SEEING things as such.

The reason for complaning this issue is – I don’t see the working culture in Malaysia growing. In stead, I see failure. When you give out all but just to find that the stupid interviewer don’t even know how to answer your quest back. For example, I was thrown numerous questions like ” What do you see yourself in 5 yrs time?” blablabla, you give magical words but when they wanted to end the session, they’d ask “Do you have any questions?” *Yipee!Time to shine!* I asked “What do you see in the company’s growth in 5 yrs time?” and you know what this bloody Indian from India said ? “I DON’T KNOW” OMG, what kind of Indian management are you?

Thus, my conclusion should end with a democritic paragraph, I see no growth in the working world of my country. -Pissed-

 

 
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